1Evilface

Bleed Cut myself, I like to see The blood drip, the way it seeps Such a turn on, it excites me I love the way I make myself bleed Crimson, such a nice hue Especially, seeing it on you Cut me, I'll cut you too It's just something I love to do It's wrong, but it feels right Hold my hand, take the knife I trust you, don't make me think otherwise I want to see the red fluid tonight Will I get better? One can only hope Doing this, it's the way I cope The sensation, it's like taking dope My knife is who I look to as my Pope Cut me, let me see You're in control, insert your seed Into the wound, inside me I love the way you make me bleed

Happy Together I think about you, see? It's true I think about you day and night It's only right To think about the one you love And hold them tight So happy together If I should call you up Invest some time And say you belong to me And you are mine Imagine how our world could be So very fine So happy together I can't see me loving nobody but you For all my life When you're with me, honey The skies are blue For all my life You and me Me and you We could be Consumed I don't care what they say It's fine You are the only one To ease my mind You're like a drug to me You make me high So happy together So let them roll the dice It still wi

Music This gut feeling I feel Hearing certain things The thing it steals Is my concentration This thing instills a fear in me Something beyond words There is a sense of urgency I cannot explain it, but it's real I feel I can relate Though I emotionally can't It puts me in this state Of confusion and grief I'm moved to tears And I'm physically uneasy It brings out my fears And nervous thoughts Music is a powerful tool They say it is used to control One would be a fool To just sit and listen blindly

Indecisive I've had my priorities straight for years now Go to school, make honor roll, graduate But lately I've been getting itch somehow To just drop everything and pursue a musical state Is this a phase? I ask myself No it's not, I reassure It's not about wealth Work shouldn't be a chore I get told it's stupid, to become What I feel I was meant to do It makes me wanna run Far, far away from you But I'll stay quiet And walk down the smooth road Inside I wanna riot Still, I do what I'm told Now I'm stuck In this place I don't wanna be Fuck If only I had listened to me!

Better Luck Next Year Just another day Don't need to celebrate Used to being alone So no waiting by the phone But to me, that's okay Well, okay for today My feeling is neutral The feelings aren't mutual So, alone I'll be No one feels for me Tomorrow I'll see More of my lonely spree I looked outside today Surprisingly, it was gray No couples outside Where'd they go to hide? "Never mind that" I say Keeping my emotions at bay No one is here "Better luck next year"

Endless Winter Walking around Looking down At the ground Always a frown On my face Because of my disgrace I cannot replace My absence of grace Today is gray Like always It won't go away My life is astray Can't cope with this loss Makes me feel lost What used to be my cross Buried under frost Dig it up, I'll try Something will always go awry Looked it in the eye Found out it was a lie Today is gray Like always Can't disobey It won't go away Should I try again? No. Could I try again? Too low. Would I try again? Just go. Can't seem to get rid of the snow Should I cry again? Why? Could I cry again? Try. Would I cry again? *Sighs* It's t

Was This What You Wanted? Was my time worth it? Should I go on? It's too late for me I've done nothing but wrong This isn't how it was supposed to be Everything did not go as planned I was supposed to take the bullet But now it's me you can't stand What has happened to me? Why am I so afraid? I can't express my emotions That, I forbade You did this to me Now I'll never heal I'm "useless" and damaged But do you think I do this to feel- Wanted? It's just another word to me I've gone completely numb Depression, useless hatred To this I've succumbed You'll look at me in the future And see a person emotionally taunted Just one question, thou

That Girl Period 1: Foods Class "Who is that?" "I know that girl She's very outspoken She always knows what to do But she fools around with her friend "Shy you say? I don't think so! She's the loudest one in here We don't think, we know" Period 2: Spanish III "Who is that?" "I barely know that girl She's always quiet It seems she doesn't care though She isn't the shyest "She comes up to present There's no fear in her face You see her, she's mellow Apprehension? Not a trace" Period 3: English III "Who is that?" "I don't know that girl She's deathly silent She seems a bit nervous I'd never believe she was once strident "She walks in

The Sad Man I see him in my dreams A recurring male He's always sad, it seems His search for happiness failed He has a weakness for children They make him forget He may be a somber omen I think I'm a pessimist He has pale white skin, and a dark air The poor guy He's average height, has dark brown hair And piercing blue eyes He is a man I don't know I can't recognize his face Lately he hasn't shown But for him, I've found a place I made him my own My souvenir of sadness I gave him an identity And named him Markus

Inner Ability Sometimes, you're not even aware The strength, of which you bare Or your beauty, what you flair All you see are the scars you wear Sometimes, you feel like you're not worth it I admire, how you don't take shit Your intelligence, and your wit You're a puzzle piece that just does not fit Sometimes, when you're in a daze I look at you, and find myself amazed The shit you go through, you're not even fazed You feel like finding yourself is a maze Well, maybe it is a maze, you know? Finding yourself is the only way you'll grow Because when it's all over, the big show I'll be backstage, saying "I told you so"